It's been a weird week. The majority of it was spent sleeping and the rest in a weird uncomfortable passive.... something. Obsessions of the week: my weight, my failure to leave the house and long walks in the middle of the night that I rarely actually take.



Productivity-wise I've fallen off a little but not much. I'd like to see myself able to pick up the camera every day but I said that last year.

Weight-wise I'm coming to terms with my body since I finally have a full wardrobe of clothes that fit me. Also dancing around in my underwear taking pictures with Photobooth and posting them on the internet to rave reviews. I have to keep reminding myself that I have a lot of muscle mass under my layer of 'love butter' and that my body is still kickin' even if it's bigger than when I worked out or just worked 7 days a week. Despite all the whining, I'm a lot happier today than I was a year ago.



Ugh. I'm a hot mess.

LOL

I forgot that I ordered piercing needles and they showed up in the mail addressed to my mom. O.O

We didn't say anything, she just handed them to me and shook her head. Then she said, "for stabbing yourself in the ear, not drugs right?"

"Yeah Mom," I said, trying to sound cheerful, "I like to smoke my drugs!"

"Take good care of your dog. BYE"

*exit mom*

My dog just had his right kidney removed because it was composed mostly of a nonmalignant mass that was rotting off into his body. We finally got him into UGA and they fixed him right up from what I can tell. Of course it's much more technical than that but I don't feel like posting my dog's post op creatinine levels.

He... is kinda like a puppy again in demeanor like big dogs usually are. And we found the Atlanta Lab Rescue just in time to help pay for the whole thing.

There's about a half chance though that he'll just founder after this, but I think he's got a lot more life left in him. Every day he gets up to a freshly prepared breakfast and a fenced in yard full of small saplings for him to uproot. Truly a king's life from a dog's perspective! I think the best indicator will be this summer when he's swimming. Dog can swim for days.

So yeah. Last night I made nail polish out of MAC's Jewel Marine glitter, clear nail polish, another glitter np and a little jelly teal. It's pretty fuckin' gorg imo.

Picture post to follow tonight probably.

Too addicted to Tumblr to fuck.

Seriously, it is taking over my life. But badabada the urge to blog comes on strong when it comes on.

I've been thinking about, designing and doing a lot of nails lately, so I thought I would do a little timeline from most recent to most distant (that I can find.)

This week I am rocking modest coke shovels (my favorite square shape btw, no more flare than this plz) in white and a custom glitter teal. The right hand has added mylar and a wee bit of clear powder added to extend the custom mix. I also added some rhinestones and will probably dust on a few bullion accents after a day or two.

At first I tried to use nail forms, but of course my bitten beds are still too short and unwieldy to provide a proper base for them yet. So I returned to my trusty clear tips with wells and caked on the white tips, spending almost an hour hand sculpting them because getting that non dominant hand to sculpt a nice smile line is like pulling teeth.





Finally I pulled my ratios back a bit and pushed in the mermaidy goodness, being careful to add enough product at the apex and NOT let it puddle at the cuticles. Then I hand filed, added the silver smile line detail, coated the shit out of them with Seche Vite, added rhinestones and Seche Vite'd again.

I plan on pulling out the big girl camera later and getting some nice shots of their best angles.


Last week for New Year I took pictures of the pointy goodness I sculpted on tips in pure white, tipped in red and added rhinestones at the cuticle line.



And here are a few more blasts from the past(s) a few nail wants and some random funny pictures. ENJOY










That's all I can muster atm.



Here's a pic of me wearing beads as earlets, and you can see my pretty yo-yo bedcover in the bkg.



I am going to attempt this makeup later today.



I want to make these nails. Someday!



One of my tumblr peeps wrote me a drawing prompt as follows: A giggling sexbot making toast. o.o



I need a pair of these.




Just kidding! I love you. Probably.

Hooray, I survived Christmas. And with a pretty good haul I might add.
I got:

1. a stainless water bottle
2. a cheap but fun/ decent Yamaha keyboard to share with brother
3. an awesome Blue snowball mic
4. grey cardigan/ skinny scarf from the Rodarte for Target collection
5. 3 pairs denim, 1 skinny, 1 relaxed, 1 wide leg
6. a shit ton of socks and tights
   
7. 6 sets bras + panties from VS
8. more cash than my family can really afford because they love me so so much

Everyone left today and I'll miss them but as usual their presence was becoming overwhelming toward the end.

I'm in a list making mood, so here are some things that I've enjoyed and appreciated about the past year:

1. Really working my therapy/ meds to restore myself to sanity.
2. Watching Dave make progress toward his career and our goals as a couple
3. Having a mother who cares about me so much that she's allowed me to live in her home and focus solely on my mental health and growth
4. Getting accepted to a new college
5. Everything about my brother, especially spending time with him
6. Food
7. Drawing and drawing and drawing
8. Picking up music again, especially playing the piano

And some things that I hated:

1. Seeing my dog deteriorate
2. Having to spend a whole year on myself
3. Not working
4. Snuggies
5. Too much sleep
6. Not reaching my goal weight and fitness
7. Too much tv

I'm so ready for 2010!

5 more days

until the frenzy is over and I can go back to my fuzzy cocoon of denial. The good news is that I only have a little left to do for my holiday plans to come off as smooth as silk. The bad news is that I have little to no excitement in regards to my grandparents visiting. It's a learned affliction for sure.

The family trio plus Dave had a lovely dinner tonight. Mom roasted a beef tenderloin and made here amazing mashed potatoes. I daringly opened a can of green beans and dumped them into a container to be heated. Culinary skills, I have them. Seriously though, Zach and I made delicious apple filled crepes with some glorious Galas that have been quietly begging to be used up from the bottom of the fridge. I didn't document them however because a) I'm always tired and b) they were so delicious WE ATE THEM ALL.

So to conclude, I recommend that you visit my tumblr if you haven't already

http://biddypunk.tumblr.com

I shouldn't be allowed out in public.

Because I can't interact.

*Tiger Woods joke*

OH SNAP